Snuffie March 14, 2011 - April 6, 2017.
On April 6, 2017 we had to say goodbye to our sweet little bunny Snuffie. she really was such a part of the family. Sanne made this beautiful video of our goodbye at the vet.
In november 2016 Sanne found a little lumb on her chest. We went to the vet, and it was bad news. She was probably suffering from breastcancer and needed surgery. Sanne was brokenhearted. luckely they could operate her within a few days. we bought a bench so she could sit inside (it was already very cold outside), and i was worried because they shaved lots of her warm fur.
Sanne had been ill for a day, but i wanted her to go to school during the operation day. we could only wait, and she really needed the distraction. i gave her a little book, so she could write down her worries. and she did! on the toilet in school. when she came home she immediately checked on Snuffie.
we put Kuffie (her brother & best friend :) with her in the bench and they were so sweet together.
Sanne took care of her like a real bunny mom! and Snuffie did great! she survived surgery and was her 'happy' little self (she was grumpy sometimes so we made fun of her being "happy"). fast forward to February 2017. We discovered new lumbs... Bad news, the tumors were back already and there was nothing we could do anymore... we just had to wait how long Snuffie would be fine.
but last Thursday (April 6, 2017) she was suddenly breathing very heavily. we called the vet and could come over within the hour. I kinda tried to explain to Sanne that it could be very bad news, that maybe she even had to be put down. Sanne simply said she wanted an injection too because she couldn't handle not having her... i felt so sorry for her. my heart broke in a thousand pieces...
at the vet, after the x-rays, it was more than clear: her lungs were full of tumors. bunny's are "prey" animals, so they will act as normal as possible untill they simple can't no more, and then they show. so that's why, all of a sudden, one day she was hopping around, and the next she was gasping for air.
we decided it was best for her to let her go. Sanne was so intensly sad, i couldn't even breath normally anymore. the vet was so nice, gave us all the time we needed. we took some more 'last pictures' and he gave her the injection. We had Kuffie with us, so he could say goodbye to his bestie too. Snuffie was on Sanne's lap, and fell asleep. Within minutes she was gone <3.
Ruben was still in school and didn't know yet. Arjan told him in the car and ofcourse he was overwhelmed with grief. at home they both sat with her for a very long time.
they were talking to her. stroking her fur. crying for their loss. my mother heart was heavy. seeing your kids in such grief and pain is horrible. she still was so beautiful. her eyes were still gorgeous.
Sanne painted a box so beautifully and we searched my fabric stash for a nice piece to wrap around her. they collected all kinds of special stuff to put with her in the box.
crocheted hearts, lucky stones, a card, Sanne made carrots out of clay. This little ritual of ours was very healing to witness.
snuffie surrounded by love from Sanne & Ruben.
last kisses before the box was closed.
ready for the funeral.
luckily, we have our new home, although it is being rebuild. Sanne was so sad that Snuffie didn't get to see her new home & garden. she did visit a few times, but she never lived here. but hey, she's the first one of us, "living" at our new address :)
finding a beautiful spot underneath my favorite tree!
they both helped digging the hole. close to the water, just the perfect spot.
adding flowers. we didn't have anything else yet, but they used some flowers from our own garden. and so special: Kuffie didn't move. normally he races through the garden. hopping around, searching for yummy flowers or plants to eat. or just jump around for fun. he stayed put for the time we were there. as if he knew.
back home, seeking comfort with Kuffie.
Friday we bought some beautiful decorations for her sweet little grave. there was even a "Nijntje" shape of flowers. perfect for Snuffie.
a little smile from Sanne with her beloved Kuffie.
back at home she relaxed with Kuffie.
it was a whirlwind kinda 4 days. everything seems a bit back to normal again. she has been crying on and off on Thursday & Friday all day actually. I just let her cry and grief. my motherheart was hurting so bad. to see your children in so much pain and sorrow is killing. Ruben did cry too, but he kinda moved on more quickly. and that's totally OK too. it's okay that they process this differently, as long as we let them be theirselves. with all the emotions. now we can talk about it and why it was the best and loving decision ever to let Snuffie go.
oh, sweet little Snuffie, we miss you so & will seriously never forget her.